You see, sometimes, we try to protect the people we care about from all threats, whether real or created. This is the trap that I fell into because I saw some things that I considered evidence without getting the rest of the details or going any deeper. The members of my pack are special to me and, when I perceive one of them is threatened, I react to protect them.
Joe
In this particular case, I accused another member of our pack of doing something that he did not do based on faulty evidence and I adamantly stuck by that accusal to the point that it caused severe damage to the dynamic of the whole pack. Now that I know the rest of the story, I am truly sorry and hope one day that you will understand my actions and forgive me.
Yes, I was dogmatic but please understand it was because I was trying to protect the others out of love. Just as you would have done in my shoes. In some ways, we are very similar, my friend, and, at times, that can be a very volatile mixture to work with. We both love her very much. That doesn't mean I want to take her from you or that I would ever give up what I have. That means we both want what is best for her and to protect her. She is a part of both of us.
She is with you and she is happy. That is all I ever wanted for her. When I saw the things I did, I misunderstood where they were coming from and thought her happiness was threatened. So, I reacted to protect that happiness before I got the full story and I am sorry. I know right now you probably won't even read this but some day you may and you might understand my perspective as well.
Giana
I am sorry to you because I didn't put enough trust in your judgement. I meant well but as the saying goes the road to hell is paved with good intentions. I was trying to do the right thing and, being so focused on that objective, I went horribly astray of the mark. I hope that you as well can forgive me and understand that the things I did came from the heart.
Lucille
The poor lady I have put through hell the last few days as I ranted and raved. I'm sorry to have added stress to your life and, to be honest, I don't know why you put up with me but I'm glad you do. I love you very much, even when I crawl up into my walls and hide from the world. I don't shut you out because I don't care. I do it to protect you from the monsters inside my own head.
My Children
Marc, Travis and Loree, you are the most important members of my pack. I would do anything to protect each of you. I love you so much and I will always defend you from anything, just as the other adults in this pack will. You are the reason we are all connected and you will remain the thing that ties us together no matter what else will come.